Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Sweetwater, TN

The trip was awesome.  The Boy and I had a great time.  Did some shopping, some looking at caverns, some sleeping, and just rode through the beautiful country side.  A great little relaxing trip. 

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Cooling off...

Went to switch cars w/The Boy so that I can clean his Jeep out before our trip tomorrow, it is waaay too hot outside right now, so I'm taking a break to cool off before I hope to it.  We are heading out to Sweetwater, TN in the morning to see the Lost Sea and some flea markets, museums, etc.  I am so looking forward to this mini-vacay and some much needed alone time with just me and The Boy.  We already booked our hotel, confiscated my GPS back from my lil sis and now I just need to finish packing, buy some snackables for the drive there and then we'll be ready to head out nice and early in the A.M.  should take us around 4 hrs to get there and I'm driving el Jeepo.  He's gonna nap, he's had overtime this week working 12 hour shifts so I volunteered to drive.  Never drove the Jeep before today, but I'm looking forward to it.  Hopefully I'll remember my camera and extra batteries and can get some good pics to post on here.  Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend, blog ya Monday.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Broke out The Write Brain WorkBook

I'm going to try to do one of the writing exercises every week and share it with you.  So the first one you are asked 3 questions, after each is a group of words, you circle the word you like the most, my 3 words wound up being:  Carousel, Insensitive, and Lamb

You have to start your exercise with the sentence: Sometimes I feel just like a gerbil, running around and around on his wheel.  So here is what I came up with:

Sometimes I feel just like a gerbil, running around and around on his wheel.  Not even a carousel, just a plain old wheel.  It seems no matter how hard I go or how far I get I'm right back at my starting point.  I stay frozen, in complete fear.  Some days I wake up panicked; thinking that I am back there.  When will the fear end so that I can let my life begin?  I have great dreams, yet here I am cowering like a lost lamb, behind shadows that vaguely resemble him and his cold  hearted cruelty.  Everyday I relive his insensitivity to me and how I truly felt.

Some days I want to scream at the insanity he has bestowed upon me.  But I have found that I truly have no fight left.  He took it all.  Drained me completely of my life and liveliness.

So many questions rise up from my subconscious and so many excuses could be said in reply.  But only one answer is true...
     "Because, my child, You let him."
So few words, but the truth is in them and it resonates beyond anything my soul can bear.
     "Because, You let him."
I can only wipe the tears away and ask myself the question that will always go unanswered...
     "Why?  Why did I let him?"

Monday, June 21, 2010


So my weakness is books, seriously I LOVE to read, can't get enough of it. The Boy enjoys reading too, but repeatedly claims astonishment at the rate that I devour books. Since I last posted about reading Night Watch I have finished Day Watch and am now a good bit into Twilight Watch. I recommend these HIGHLY to EVERYONE. I have also ordered the series of books on Sookie Stackhouse. Which I'm soooo looking forward to getting.  I have heard that there is a 4th book in the Watch series, I will have to look into this as well.  Its such a neat series, set in modern Russia with these "people" or others as the book calls them.  Basically magical beings, which are divided into good and evil, but the lines of good and evil are definitely blurred, making each step you take with the characters quite riveting, at one moment you are cheering for the "good" guys and the next you are wanting the "baddies" to win.  *sigh* hate when I finish reading them tho....

Good night to you all in Blogger land.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Finally working on my novel...

Found a free OCR program and I'm currently working on scanning in all the pages I had printed before, I just thank God that I had a rough draft printed out before the series of events that resulted in me losing my electronic copies of my novel happened.  So I'm hoping that this program will work out.  I cannot believe how many pages of work I lost, but I have hope that I will be able to edit it again and hopefully this time it will be bigger and better than ever.  I'd love to be able to get it published...I'm not hoping for a New York Times Bestseller (though that would be very nice) I'd just like to have it out there in the world. 

So tonight I will be sitting here listing to La Roux and scanning my little heart away.

Friday, June 18, 2010

So I know i promised...

Pictures! Hello, where did I let the time go? I totally promised pictures of my room in a previous blog. Where are they? Okay well they are finally here! *drum roll please*:

Okay this is the view of my room from the door.  Currently looking for a wall-tattoo to put on my wall above my bed in that big open spot.  (any suggestions are welcome)

This is the view of my room from the closet area, love my retro looking lamp, also on the lookout for some better coordinating fabric to cover the blah side of my bookcase, but the blue works for now.  I'm really enjoying how my sleep area is separate from my work area.

This is what my world looks like when I'm blogging late at night.  Yup love the laptop, it comes with me to bed, though I really have to stop doing that, it keeps me up later than I intend.

What things look like from my desk area.  The closet is looking a little plain, but I really don't have any ideas on what to do with it.

View of the world through my window.  Just the neighbor's house.  Oh and a nifty oriental teapot.

Now this is the view that I love, the trees in the backyard.  This is where I sometimes sit to view the wildlife.  We've had turkeys, deer, squirrel, woodpeckers, cardinals, blue jays, finches and more so far this summer.

And that's a look into my night a couple weeks ago where I went crazy rearranging things.


So I came across a blog that had this:


and a link leading back to the originator

It seems pretty cool. And a great way to get followers. Still not 100% on how it works but I'm gonna give it a shot.

Wish me luck!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Hot Day

Today was burning hot, but still had a beautiful one despite the bad mood I was in after finding out someone was yet again bashing me online. Seriously, when someone claims to have moved on and then after a year is still drudging shit up, have they really moved on? I think not. Just let me live my life in peace! It was so miserable for 6 years b/c of them, why can't they just leave shit alone now and let me be? *BIG sigh* Oh well. I really need to get one of those books on meditation and de-stressing. Any recommendations? Perhaps I'll start to read the secret again. Last time I started really getting into it, my life took a turn for the worse, or so I thought at the time, actually turned out to be the best thing that happened to me. Who knew that a thing that seemed so terrible could have been so good? It took me awhile to get back on my feet and such, but now that I am, I couldn't ask for things to be better. Sure there are things that I want and stuff that I want to do, but I wouldn't change my NOW for anything from my PAST and that is all that matters.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Having to resist the urge...

The urge to create has crept back into my system. I know its from a little bit of stress...crafting, sewing, writing, etc. is so soothing to me, but I just either a. don't have the space; b. don't have the time; or c. don't have the patience to start a project right now. But I want to get something, anything and sand it down, spiff it up and paint it etc. This is driving me nuts. I miss my craft room so very very much, and I know it will be 2+ years before I will have one again. ARGH! Wish I could make my brain be still enough to sit down and take another crack at rewriting my novel. Well its getting to be late and I work in the morning. So I'm putting my thoughts on hold until tomorrow. Perhaps and idea on how to work this thing out will come to me in time...

Where to fit in a craft room???

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Beauty in everyday...

Came across this video and just something about it really touched me...hope you enjoy:

Friday, June 11, 2010

Great DAY!!!!

So today The Boy and I spent a lot of time together.  We went to Wytheville, wandered around this government surplus store where I got 4 binders that were practically brand new for 0.75 a piece.  And I got a nifty little pocket knife it's a FURY.  We ate at Ruby Tuesdays, love that place, then I went to the college to talk to a counselor and try to get everything situated.

I got signed up for all my classes next semester and if all my stuff from SCC transfers, I should be able to knock out getting my degree in just THREE semesters!!!!  I'm super stoked over that.  So if I take summer classes next year I might have my degree by August 2011.  WOW. 

It is so awesome to finally feel like I'm getting my life back on track.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

I was a total newbie...

but everyone was awesome to me, extra kind, extra gentle, especially when inserting that "needle" (more like a straw) into my veins.  I'm terrified of little needles...this thing was terrifying.  But I made it, and it was for a good cause.  And honestly, after losing a pint of blood, I feel pretty good about myself, and fairly energetic.  Weird right?  LOL.

Donate some blood.  It could save a life.  I'm a big chicken and I did it.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Hate feeling like this....

The ol' Gallbladder has decided to flare up again.  I hadn't had an attack in quite some time.  Which, of course may be due to the extreme gallbladder cleanse diet I went on last year, but as the pain had subsided so did my persistence in eating healthily.  So now, I'm going to make do with what we have here at the house until I get paid, then Friday me and The Boy are heading down to the Farmer's Market to buy me some fresh foods to eat and to help get rid of this persistent and crippling pain.  Unfortunately, I do not have health insurance, and am avoiding going to the drs like all hell...but if I can't get my gallbladder to fix itself; I'm terrified that I am truly running the risk of it rupturing and having to have surgery, that is something that I definitely cannot afford. 

Hopefully, with a light breakfast, and plenty of high acid fruit juices tomorrow I can hold out until Friday when I can get the best gallstone fighting foods.  Wish me luck.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

End of the Weekend...

Still no pictures of my room to post yet, but I'll get there...eventually. 

I was driving home from eating dinner with The Boy earlier tonight, and lo and behold, I drove by Race-In and you wouldn't believe what was there fueling up...A short school bus that had South Park on the side and all the South Park Characters in the windows (painted not real of course)  Unfortunately with it being dark out my cell didn't take a picture in which you can see anything, at all...So I'm highly disappointed with that :( But still seeing that bus was awesome.  Makes me want to watch some South Park! LOL. 

Well, its late and I have work tomorrow, so hopefully I'll get those pictures up soon.  Good Night to all!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Late Night Ideas

Why is it that the dumbest ideas hit me late at night.   Tonight it was "Hey! I need a small nightstand of some sort, lets go to wal-mart and find one."   Then I get home and I think, "Hey! This thing will be a breeze to put together lets do it now!"  An hour later it is together.  (This means its even later at night, for those of you bad at math.)  So then I think, "Hey!  It would be neat if I could reconfigure my room so that I have my desk area set separate from my sleep area!"  Three hours later, I'm still not done, it is now 3:42, I'm gonna sleep on the couch and finish my room tomorrow.  LMAO.  But I'll post at least one pic once I'm done.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

What a Day...

So work was a little rough, but no biggie, but when I got home my books had come in the mail "Woo Hoo!!!"  and I found out that I'm approved for Financial Aid triple "Woo Hoo!"  and I just had a great afternoon, other than mom still being bummed...still trying to cheer her up.  :(

But the books look like they are going to be awesome especially The Write-Brain Workbook I'm thinking about seeing if some of the exercises would be doable to do on here.  *crosses fingers*  That'd def give me some food for thought so that ya'll have more exciting reads.  LOL.