Since this is Crystal Raen's Ramblings, Crystal Raen is gonna ramble. Just mindless drivel so feel free to not read or read, whateva is your preference.
Sometimes I seriously wonder if everything you do in life, every decision, is the wrong one to do, the wrong one to make.
I see my future as it is going to be. I feel dissatisfied.
I envision my future how I would want it be. But see no viable paths to reach that point.
So much has passed me by without me realizing it.
I'm not young any longer. Though I truly want to believe that I am, and that I still have every option available to me that I once had. I am told that I do not.
I want to be sure that I'm not making the same mistakes twice.
But my gut is telling me that I am.
What if I am?
I envision my future as a repeat of the past.
This thought breaks me. It breaks me into pieces.
Push, pull, sigh, cry, scream, laugh.
These are all me. Right now.
Where to go, what to do, how to get there.
No matter what path I take, someone will hurt, a heart will break in some corner.
Will it be yours, or will it be my own.
How do I choose between myself and between you?