Lately I've been wishing I could talk to someone. A counselor perhaps. Things have just been crazy and I'm feeling crazier by the millisecond. At the moment so many things are uncertain. I wish that I wasn't in a position where what I'm doing and where I live wasn't at the whim of other people.
I worry about trying to move in the middle of a school semester if things get that bad. I worry about money issues and how to save for Richie and I's future. With my car falling apart every time I turn around and the amount of gas it takes to get to school and back 3 times a week, I can't afford the minimal things, let alone am able to save money.
And I'm so very worried about someone in my family. She is in a bad place, but won't leave it, no matter how many options she has, she would rather stay in a position where her life revolves around someone who is obviously an abuser of sorts, not sure if there is any physical abusing (fairly certain, but no concrete proof) but there is definitely mental abuse going on. I cried myself nearly sick over it last night. And today, I can hardly focus my mind is so intent on being worried over her.
But like everyone says, until she is willing to admit that there is a problem and ask for help, what can I really do?
Monday, September 12, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Woman Blessed. Woman Empowered.
This is me. This is who I am. No man can change the core of me. Regardless of my weight or my age, my passions lie where they belong, my heart beats on through trials and through triumphs, my soul sings my song and no other.
Some may say what I've been through is trivial and others believe I've been to hell and back. Regardless, my life has finally led me to a place where I feel that I have the potential to finally be comfortable in my own skin. I'm not completely there yet, but I am close. Finally I am on the path to being me, not who others want me to be.
My life has changed so much. I am facing new challenges. Good ones this time. I am going to complete college, I am volunteering with my community. I am going to join a committee within the Carroll County Chamber of Commerce, and I am working at a job that I really love. The man I am with is real man, someone who genuinely values me as I am. He is willing to work hard so we can accomplish our dreams of a home, marriage, and a family of our own. He is also willing to let me help him work towards our goals.
Richie has helped me in so many ways, if not for him I am not sure that I would have went back to college; which itself has led to so many rewarding things already.
Because of an interview for one of my classes, I was offered a job to start working at Red Hill General Store again, which led me to start getting my hair cut just down the road, where I met Haley and I am now helping her with the Women's Business Expo. Red Hill has also gotten me involved with the Chamber of Commerce. College has led me to be a member of Phi Theta Kappa, where the volunteer requirements led me to Chestnut Creek School of Arts, which is an awesome place in and of itself.
All of this resulting from the encouragement of one man who believed in me.
My family has also been an enormous blessing n giving me the continual encouragement to stay on this path when I have days that I feel I am unable to accomplish these big tasks in my life. They have more love and respect from me than they could ever know.
I know that from time to time I can get down on myself. But I feel that to a certain point that this is only natural. But when I take a moment and truly think about my life, I am floored at how blessed I really am. I only wish everyone could experience this feeling of accomplishment and life potential.
I am a woman blessed. Blessed by my family, my fiance, and the discovery of my own inner strength.
Some may say what I've been through is trivial and others believe I've been to hell and back. Regardless, my life has finally led me to a place where I feel that I have the potential to finally be comfortable in my own skin. I'm not completely there yet, but I am close. Finally I am on the path to being me, not who others want me to be.
My life has changed so much. I am facing new challenges. Good ones this time. I am going to complete college, I am volunteering with my community. I am going to join a committee within the Carroll County Chamber of Commerce, and I am working at a job that I really love. The man I am with is real man, someone who genuinely values me as I am. He is willing to work hard so we can accomplish our dreams of a home, marriage, and a family of our own. He is also willing to let me help him work towards our goals.
Richie has helped me in so many ways, if not for him I am not sure that I would have went back to college; which itself has led to so many rewarding things already.
Because of an interview for one of my classes, I was offered a job to start working at Red Hill General Store again, which led me to start getting my hair cut just down the road, where I met Haley and I am now helping her with the Women's Business Expo. Red Hill has also gotten me involved with the Chamber of Commerce. College has led me to be a member of Phi Theta Kappa, where the volunteer requirements led me to Chestnut Creek School of Arts, which is an awesome place in and of itself.
All of this resulting from the encouragement of one man who believed in me.
My family has also been an enormous blessing n giving me the continual encouragement to stay on this path when I have days that I feel I am unable to accomplish these big tasks in my life. They have more love and respect from me than they could ever know.
I know that from time to time I can get down on myself. But I feel that to a certain point that this is only natural. But when I take a moment and truly think about my life, I am floored at how blessed I really am. I only wish everyone could experience this feeling of accomplishment and life potential.
I am a woman blessed. Blessed by my family, my fiance, and the discovery of my own inner strength.
Friday, July 29, 2011
Ugh, I keep being MIA
Sorry that I don't keep up with blogging like I used to with my other blog. Life seems to keep getting in the way. (That and the fact that I still don't have the internet in my apt. Grrrr!)
But despite that fact, I have some neat news to share with you! The store I work with, Red Hill General Store, owns a website (one of many) called Pressure Cooker Outlet, where we sell pressure cookers, pressure canners, and other kitchen sundries. (Of course!)
Well, we have been working on a little something with Pressure Cooker Outlet, and have finally released it for the public, and that is our Pressure Cooker Outlet Affiliate Program. Seriously go check out that link! We are offering 10% of the sales made through our affiliates' links to the affiliate in question. Want to know more? Go to: http://www.pressurecooker-outlet.com/aff/affiliate/index.php
But despite that fact, I have some neat news to share with you! The store I work with, Red Hill General Store, owns a website (one of many) called Pressure Cooker Outlet, where we sell pressure cookers, pressure canners, and other kitchen sundries. (Of course!)
Well, we have been working on a little something with Pressure Cooker Outlet, and have finally released it for the public, and that is our Pressure Cooker Outlet Affiliate Program. Seriously go check out that link! We are offering 10% of the sales made through our affiliates' links to the affiliate in question. Want to know more? Go to: http://www.pressurecooker-outlet.com/aff/affiliate/index.php
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